Just a Bad Night

Today my day started okay. But when I went to meet my boyfriend my day and mood started to go downhill I was happy to see him but the way he acts and the way he say things to me sometimes are just rude or inappropriate. then our friends came over and the day just got worst and my patience wore thin with everyone and i started to take it out on my boyfriend. for now im just at home while my boyfriend is drinking with our friends and enjoying himself and im on here listening to music to make me feel better and it starting to and also writing about it and rethinking helps i guess somedays instead of keeping to myself (in my mind) is not healthy.

The Rant of the Week :-)

     Wow! Haven't been on here lately I realized recently that I need  to get my priories figure out because my phone is shut off because I decided to add my sister to my phone line and my step dad  and either one have tried to pay the phone bill i have a feeling that they might bail and get new phones because they think they are better and they can get out of everything scott free I don't understand why they think they are better then everybody else ugh! its so frustrating.
     Another person that's the same way is Tori she is my friend but lately the last year our friendship had there ups and down but overall I been thinking that she and Jesse her boyfriend (she been on and off with for 6 years) have been talking crap about my family then tell me if I don't like cover my ears or go away in my house really. what kind of friend are you if you don't  respect your friend in their house i'm sorry your just rude or maybe just a bitch. I understand that you are being honest but I don't think you should be judging because I thought your boyfriend owed you $2500 and hasn't payed you back and he try to fix your motor and was the one that broke it but now it's my step -brother's fault and he will never pay you back because his dad which is my step-dad didn't I'm sorry he had bills to pay and rent to pay and had to help bail my sister out of her messes but I guess those are excuses to avoid  paying you and you had to cause trouble within the family and put me in the middle of your drama but if I recommend and trust him and others do to with there car but whatever you car genius boyfriend is so much better when he has ruined you car before more then once.
      I'm sorry wait I'm Not Sorry anymore for your problems I enjoy your friendship but please stop trying to get me "away" people in my family I known them longer then you and yes he had made his mistakes in the past but overall without him I probably would never met my wonderful boyfriend Kevin and you because he brought me to a place called "The Toybox" where I fell in love with music where I decided to go to school for music business where I met Kevin which is your best friend.

New quater New stress pt 2

    So my classes this quarter are as follow World music, Advertising/Promotion, and finally Intercultural Communication. They are interesting but pretty much World Music is a about different music around the world and cultures and Intercultural Communication is about different cultures and how to communicate with them I feel like I'm in high school again repeat of something I have already learn in one of the many classes I took in high school its sad the only thing different I'm paying for this class this time around. I think the entire concept is make sure it jammed in your head so you won't forget that different cultures have different ways of communicating now I remember what class this is like it's like Business Communications I took when I started in college. When I went to class tonight I actually had people in class that I knew which was nice to have someone to talk to that I knew because I'm a shy person when i get around new people I'm really quiet and don't talk much ( I know I need to work on it) but when I around people that I know I'm a fun loving talkative person and controlling ( my boyfriend will testified to that lol ).

I know I'm kind of rambling but ain't that what this is for to vent or write what's on my mind.

     Anyways, while I was in class my boyfriend went to hangout with some friends and called me just to tell me that he "missed me" and "wish I was there" it kind of felt like he was rubbing it in my face that he was having all this fun we were suppose to hangout with them on Friday but he didn't know what he was doing Friday night so we cancel those plans instead he goes hangout with them tonight  I don't if I should be upset or just let it go.

   

TTLY

New quarter new stresses

Today was interesting start woke up a couple times last night I had a very strange dream it was a mix of the future with medieval times but everything was modern. Like I said very strange

-Question: Have you had a weird or strange dreams that you don't know the meaning of ?

I think one reason I had this dream is because of all the new things that are happening in my life I have new classes and a different work schedule the one thing that sucks the most I'm 20 yrs old and still don't have a driver license or a car so i have to rely on people to give me a ride everywhere and work around their schedule to bring me to school and work. My biggest stress is just not having the freedom to do anything.

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